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The most beautiful part of my life...when I fell in love with you. I wonder what could be more better than this...?

But I got my answer when I discovered that you also love me. <3
And maybe this is what we call as heaven. Every moment is now a bliss, a dream that had come true. I still couldn't believe myself and so often I pinch me hard,...maybe I'm dreaming. But then I stopped caring. Let it be a dream, and let me live it.

Those first messages that I receive wishing me 'gud mrning' were enough to commence my day with a good omen and blessings. Those hand in hand walks, below the clouds-shielded sky, those hour-long talks...mostly exchanging silence, those speaking the heart out...knowing that someone is there to understand us more better than we could our self, those teasing, and getting upset, and those apologies...those fights...that gave a new meaning to the word 'fight'...those kisses, those hugs, those sighs,... those... those... those... [list will never end]

The life is too easy...as long as I have you in it; to tell me that life doesn't end when the night falls, to heal me when the sufferings crawl, to be there when the destiny seems away multiple of miles, to remind me how to smile, to tell me that love is not missing when hate is not, to tell me that someone do loves me when everyone does not, to lift me up when I fell, to dry my eyes when they shed, to be there when my courage needed strength, to let me know that love never ends, and to make me realize that love not only exist in imaginations,...to make me myself again, again and again when I'm about to lose me...and to make me all a new different person whom I should be,...all at the same time!

I wanted to love you, to give you all the love of the world,...I have enough of that in my heart.

"My bounty is as boundless as the sea, my love as deep; the more I give to thee, the more I have, for both are infinite."

It is now, that for the first time in my life, I could feel the existence of my soul! I can talk to my own heart...through yours. I can live my own life...with you. I am 'me',...for I am 'you'. 

I want to live, because after years of searching I now realize why am I alive, and that too from a simple gesture of love. I want to live because I love my 'life' ...which is 'you'. I think this is why I am born...to love...to feel love...to give love...

I know nothing but just that I Love You. Why? I don't know. I just know I can't live without you. How? I don't know. I just know you are always there with me. Where? I don't know.
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...And I know that I still miss all those memories, to feel that Love again, to believe in Love again, to believe again in what all I used to believe!

    Reality is a state of illusion. Therefore, reality couldn't possibly exist. So why did I think you were for real? I thought you were real but now I know the one I love never exited. But I still Love You... working hard how to stop you from clouding my heart that it will open up to welcome some other soul of the world. Being in love with you made me to fall in love with even the idea of 'Love' itself. But tell me...how to forget you. You taught me how to love; you taught me how to live; you taught me how to laugh; you taught me how to cry, but when you left, you forgot to teach me how to forget you.

If this was my destiny, if this was my life, as I believed it to be, then why ain't it stopped when you slipped aside? How can the world just keep on, when you are not in it anymore? Don't they know that this is the end?

    Of all the moments in my life, you were always there somewhere. Once as a wish. Once as a blessing. And now as the greatest loss I'll ever experience.

    But I did learn one thing after losing everything, that-

    "Love is the most beautiful of dreams and the worst of nightmares." 




REFERENCES:

"Love is the most beautiful of dreams and the worst of nightmares." ~William Shakespeare

"My bounty is as boundless as the sea, my love as deep; the more I give to thee, the more I have, for both are infinite." ~Romeo and Juliet, William Shakespeare

Whenever I See You

Whenever I see you,

I feel like a bud hoping for a new life.

Whenever I see you,

I feel the showers of happiness on my every side.

Whenever I see you,

I feel like a butterfly feeding on the luck.

Whenever I see you,

I feel like drowning, directly to the up!

Whenever I see you

I feel like accepting my previous life’s boon.

Whenever I see you,

I find myself searching for a nest in a bloom.

Whenever I see you,

I find myself thanking God, with my words echoing loud.

Whenever I see you,

I feel like a moon, blushing behind a cloud!

Whenever I see you,

I feel my greatest of wounds getting healed.

Whenever I see you,

I find myself playing with my own heartbeat.

Whenever I see you,

I feel myself blinded by some great magnetic force.

Whenever I see you,

I find myself talking, to my own soul!

Outrage

I was blind with tears,

With uncontrollable fears,

My mind knowing not where to go,

My hands were not obeying me anymore.

Cramp…clash…crump…crash…!

Slip…slash…slop…splash…!

These sounds seem to heel me

Though hurting me to bleed

I just moved here and there

To break everything without any care!

I hastily wiped my tears

And saw a cotton white thing

I ran to snatch it, and threw it

And suddenly…I cringed!

I felt embarrassed for my foolery

To behave this much cruelly.

As I looked through the fire and the smog,

It was burning … my dear dog!!!

In The Lullaby of Flowing Air

Another night has begun

And I cry myself to sleep

Afraid to see the dreams

Which brings the memories back, of those days

Afraid that I may begin my day

Ignoring the birds that chirps happily,

Hiding from the sun that rise to set again,

Spending my day in dusk..

Afraid to feel jealous of myself

Who once ended everyday in joy

And to beg again in front of God

To just for once, give a lively day.

Now as I lay in the gaze of moon

I hide my face, out of shame

From the sympathy of the staring stars

And the little clouds that hold the rain.

Holding up my devoidless heart

As I shed some more tear

I cry myself back to sleep

In the lullaby if flowing air…

You Are...

I am the ocean, you are my wave

I am the sun, you are my day

I am the time, you are my change

I live in the dream where you always stay.

I am the moonlight, you are my night

I am the diamond, you are my glitter

I am the vision, you are my sight

I am the page where you are written.

You are the reason for me to live

You are the season for me to sing

You are the doorbell whenever it rings

You are my memories I love to weave.

You are the bed on which I sleep

You are the flower with pleasantry smell

You are the heaven, who had turned my hell

You are my life, you can flip to see.

You are the beauty, you are the flower bed

You are a tree with an enormous shed

You are equal to the beauty of this universe, as a whole

How much I love you, from the bottom of my soul!!!

Since You're Gone

You came like a gush of wind

And intersected my life at a few days,

At first I thought it to be just a prologue

But the years went all the same after you left.

It seemed we were destined to meet

And stay together till the eternity ends,

But it was just for few small moments

And my whole life collapsed in them.

My life is now just a dot of fullstop

Though I still hope that someone would come

And place two more dots in my life

To tell me it’s just a break

And will continue up on the next turn.

I walk alone with my tired legs

Which are near to collapse anytime,

And try to take just another step

After each efforted one.

I sometimes feel lucky to have felt

Love for you in my heart

The joy, the happiness, those sweet memories

Which are now weaved with my past.              

I thought to carry them all through my life

But these are the memories that only stay,

Everything else has vanished as like time

And it seems a dead me living like hay.

I often hear people advising me

‘Don’t try to kill yourself!’

Though no on can kill someone

Who is already dead!

The world all seems black and white

And I often mistake thorns with the petals of flowers,

And close my eyes whenever the wind

Comes near my body after touching yours.

I look at the moon with mutual being

May you be seeing the same moon

And wonder what you’d be thinking

While I am thinking of you.

I hope for my miseries to end

And try to move on (as a dead)!

But trying to forget someone you love seems like

Finding the stars behind the clouds.

When nothing works, I go and sit

Between the closed walls, among the darkness,

Resting along a wall, my hands around my legs,

And with tears rolling down to wet my neck.

You left my life as the day

Vanishes when the night follows,

While I try to find you as the sky

Tries to reach its ultimate height.

I feel like a lonely drop of water

That hides from getting evaporated;

And try to get my life back

Though it seldom happens to find a dead live.