Stopped,,,!

The day I saw you for the first

And framed you in my heart

I tried to tell you, whenever we met

But suddenly stopped.

We met again and again

And I fell in love from the begin

I wanted to tell you every time we met

But suddenly stopped.

You designed my days,

Elaborated my dreams

You inspired me to live some more

I was about to tell you, but suddenly stopped.

You became a part of mine, breath of mine

I think of you every time

I wanted to tell you,

But suddenly stopped.

I waited some days to pass

But it were the years before I realized

I wanted to tell you, before my last breath,

But it suddenly stopped.

Went Away...

The tears rolled down one after another

As he made his way, out the door

The memories we weaved pumped out from my heart

Along with his name from its core.

I stood grief- struck along the stairs

As the blood with this pain flowed to my legs

It was hard to realize, all was over

No byes, no baits, and no begs.

All my moments now turned into the memories

All the truth, in a legend

My story which has never been started

Now has gone to a miserable end.

The blood mixed with the agony of pain and separation

To my whole body, as it flowed

I felt my eye-lids getting heavier

As the door opened…and closed!

I Don't Love You

I know I don’t love you

But wonder why

I think of you day and night

And often dreams of you.

I frequently find myself shutting off the door

And locking myself in between the room

Closing up my eyes, even up my breath

And meditate in the charm of yours

Or when I wake up in between my sleep

When I don’t see you in the dreams;

Or when I envy the air embracing you,

I know I don’t love you, but still I do…

I wonder why I feel sad

When you’re absent from where you shouldn’t be

And I do wonder why I hope

May you come and be with me

I know I don’t love you, but still

I sometimes feel-

I don’t know why,

Am I deceiving me?

Dark Hopes

I live among the darkest of hopes

The hopes- that you’ll be mine one day

The moon smiles at my sincerity

Every time while seeing me pray.

The stars wink every time I look at them

In a friendly gesture or sarcastically, I can’t say

I often mistake them as a good omen

Until I’m sure, they aren’t.

The wind just passes away leaving me behind

Without stopping and wishing me ‘hey!’

But suddenly it stops and teases me

Until I want it to leave, but it stays.

The more I approach, the more farther it seems

As I continued on my way

The time has too much time

To remind me of you, again and again…

If I Had Forgotten Him

If I had forgotten him

Since a very long time

Then tell me why I see him everyday

In my dreams, before sunshine

If it’s true that I had forgotten him

As we are miles apart

Then why do I feel as if

He still exist in my heart

I ought to have forgotten him

I think…, I feel…, I might…,

Then why do I try to find him

In the range of my sight

I hope to have forgotten him

So I may move on…

But why do I change my mind

Every time, with the wake of dawn

Tell me, if I had forgotten him

As I still don’t feel the same way

The way I used to, years before

And the way, before he went away…

I Walked Away From The World I Lived In

I walked away from the world I lived in

And it did heal me a little

Though I lost a part of me

While parting away…

I roamed along the lost road

The hidden path, the secret destiny,

In search of whatsoever

With my closed lids…

The light seems to vanish soon

To darken up my path

And the only thing I’d see would be

The reflection of my thoughts…

As I passed through the places

Which I knew someday back in my life

I turned my face out away

As if I don’t recognize…

And as I took the turn I saw,

The same face in front of me

Without thinking even once before,

I again fell in love with it…!!

With open books lying unread on the table

With open books lying unread on the table

I swayed myself on the rocking chair

With every new minute approaching this night

The past flashed in my eyes.

The old days, with green trees,

The wind blowing on all the streets,

The sun shining bright in the light sky

My happiness flew more high.

I listened to him over the shouting wind

The words came out without meanings

As we moved hand in hand

Carving our feet over the sand.

And sometimes a wave would come, centimeters high

Touch our feet, return with a sigh

And he would drag me more closer to him

As I see in every dream.

I closed my eyes to sense his presence

As his breaths mingle with mine

He asked me softly to open my eyes

I obeyed…not expecting his absence

The leaves withered, detached from branches

Screaming and running with panic

The sun drowned behind the dark clouds

The waves splashed with wild sounds.

Everything vanished except darkness

Screaming and shouting without silence…

With open books lying unread on the table

I swayed myself on the rocking chair.

THOSE DAYS…

As I was coming from where you were going

The distance between us was on the verge to fade,

And as your eyes stayed on mine

I knew that a difference is being made.

Those days, when we doubted on our hearts

But invested hope on the other,

Hoping that you would love me

I wondered whether I love you or not.

The first stage of love, when we looked

Stealthily at each other.

The second stage started with

Best friends before lovers.

Those days when we waited that the other

Would confess their love filmily;

Desperately desiring to meet each day

Without leaving a day in between.

And when the confessions were made by any of two

The life seemed better than heaven.

The heart beat in the rhythm of love,

And jumped on cloud nine directly from seven!

Those dreamy days…those real nights

Those hour-long talks…those sweet smiles

Those hugs and kisses…those love bites

Those similes and metaphors filled the life.

Those promises made for never to break

Those words said and meant them well

Those prolong desires, feelings unfake,

And loved each other as like hell!

Destinies were visible, path seemed clear

As we walked hand in hand

And hoped to stay together

For as long as the eternity end.

…Those days…as now I recall those days

Which now seem the epithet of past

And disappeared like a gush of wind

…How I wished them never to last…!!

Walk in Your Love

I paced me off away from the world

To walk over the horizon

And touch the sky with thorny stars

And called you upon the ridges of air.

I squeezed my eyes as the moonlight

Pierced through my eyelids

And closed my mouth for not to taste

The tears that rolled down my cheeks.

I called you again that you may come back

And glad my fortune with your smile

That you may come back once again

With the same old tricks, you deceived me with.

It is easy to feel the pain of deception

Than to see my life without you

And have me in your arms for once

Even if I don’t see the same love in you.