I Don't Love You

I know I don’t love you

But wonder why

I think of you day and night

And often dreams of you.

I frequently find myself shutting off the door

And locking myself in between the room

Closing up my eyes, even up my breath

And meditate in the charm of yours

Or when I wake up in between my sleep

When I don’t see you in the dreams;

Or when I envy the air embracing you,

I know I don’t love you, but still I do…

I wonder why I feel sad

When you’re absent from where you shouldn’t be

And I do wonder why I hope

May you come and be with me

I know I don’t love you, but still

I sometimes feel-

I don’t know why,

Am I deceiving me?