I Love You

I realize a pinch in my heart

As our love fall apart.

Smile on my face refuse to show up

continuous tears stop to stop up

words pass through my ears without being heard

images seem only blurred

lips move in futile prayers

nose seem devoid of air

past flash in the present once again

hopes stir in the mind along with pain

tearful eyes as try to sleep

nightmares follow in giant heaps.

And so, with every new effort to forget you,

I love you all the more, I love you…

He Pushed Me on the Ground

He pushed me on the ground

And then pulled me by my hair

I tearfully asked, ‘Is that why I married you?’

But he kicked me. That’s not fair!

I ordered him to stop

I asked him to set me free

And when nothing happened

I begged him ‘please’!

But he didn’t stop

And I started to cry

Then I remembered my rights

Why not to give a try…!

I pushed him greatly

And succeeded

But he reattained the condition

And instantly defeated.

He blowed hardly on my face

That I was forced to bleed

And suddenly I woke from my nightmare,

‘What happened, my sweet..?’

Snatch or Scratch

Luck! What does it mean

Only those could know it who are keen

And what I think is,

Like an ice-cream coupon may it be seen.

                 Irrespective of deservance

                   Millions of acceptance

                   Everyone is exception

                 Everywhere is deception.

And thus, all of them complaint

But only few or none reframe

Of what they deserve

And what they should gain.

And me?

          

                        I need to fly

                     But there’s no sky

                      I wanted to catch

                  But resulted to snatch

                   Strange this world is

              That a luck is to be scratched!!!

I See the World Upside Down

I see a flame burning in a river

I see a rainbow twinkling in the sky

I see the moon throwing moonly radiations

I see a fish, rather at the high.

Yes, I see the world upside down!

I sleep at noon, I wake at night

I sleep by sitting, I sit by lying

I sleep with my almirah serving as my bed

I sleep only in the daylight’s shed.

Yes, I see the world upside down!

I befriend the lizard

I detest rabbit

I blow up my chair

And the water I’d kick

Yes, I see the world upside down!

I know you from the bottom

Unamused by your ‘out’

I know what you think

Ignoring up your shout.

Yes, I see the world upside down!

I could see anything, what you hides

I could sense the truth behind your ‘pleasant’

I could see you fooling, hiding your smiles

Beware of me whenever I am present.

‘Coz, I see the world upside down!!!

Although You Tried

I held my tears, confronting you

You were trying to soothe my heart

I tried to say a word to you

But you continued telling me, How to Lighten up My Heart.

Everytime you encouraged, I tried to say my word

It was just that, you didn’t stop!

I know you were showing your sympathy

I know you understood my pain

You tried every aspect to stop me

From getting myself hurt again.

You asked me several questions

Without giving me time to think

And then you tried all the locutions

Might my pain get shrink.

But, I know my questions, I know my answers,

I know how to stop my bleed

I wanted someone to just listen

And just listen and do me a deed.

Presuming that, I need some time think,

You lift your air and went

I was trying to say something…

You just didn’t understand!

The Ash...

Here I lie between

The locked door and opaque wall

Your photo between my finger and thumb

And your memories deep inside my heart.

Today would be the last day

For all my pain and grief

And a day to celebrate

For my freedom, now that I’d be free.

I picked up the matchbox in my hand

While the tears rolled down my cheeks

And the memories of past flashed themselves

Of those hours, and days, and weeks.

All the mixed feelings of pain and anger

Through my face, they dash

As I stroked the matchstick

And burned myself to ash…!!

Glaring Hope

I wake up from my sleep, and still it is dark

I looked around, but its silence that only bark

The world seems to stop, being somewhere lost

I pinched me hard, to end the nightmare

But the wound prevailed in my skin so bare.

I walked out and saw the stars fading

I found moon, behind the clouds, hiding

I waited waited, but there seem no end

Of the stillness, for the movement ahead.

The time is too busy to bring any transition

The height, it seems, has lost its culmination

The road, perhaps, is looking for the destiny

The future might be, searching for some testimony.

I here, stand all by my own

No one to be seen, nowhere to go

Hoping for the world to move ahead

Praying to the present to be once more glad;

To erase the dark, and move into a new light

To retrieve itself, and let the birds sing happily

But my prayers remain unanswered

Everything everywhere seems cadaverous.

Everything is quenched, save one thing

The hope that glows in my heart so deep.

Though She Loves Me

I was the one, whom she says,

That she would love through eternity

The one who lived in her heart

Like a drop of water meant for sea.

I am settled in her heart like

The dust lives in road’ grooves

I am the one, as she says,

All her previous lives boons.

While sitting hand in hand over the shore,

I look above, when she asks

While trying to gather the words she says

And try to find ‘similes’ in stars.

But, in those poor normal stars

I can’t see those ‘lovely things’

And stand for hours in front of glass

To search the love she sees in me.

Now, though I pour flowers over her grave

Deaf to the heart that beats below the stone,

I can’t find tears running down my cheeks

‘cause… I don’t think I ever love her.